“You know what? I’m done. I’m done with anyone who cant make up to me, or make time for me, I don’t deserve that, I deserve people who care, who check up on me, no, who want to check up on me, people who can’t let me stay mad at them, who’d always wanna make sure I’m happy, loving myself and living my life, who support me and lift my standards so high because they really wanna make me feel all loved and heard, with everything in them, they’d always inspire me to be better, to do better, to love myself and to see beauty in it, and I’m unimaginably grateful i can actually say i have this kind of people in my life and i swear i’ll hold on to them as tight as I possibly can because honestly, i would never want to let anyone like that go”
highlypoetic via wnq-writers
I don’t have those people. But you do. And I’m not done.
Now I know that no one
take away my pain.
My pain is my own
to make my own
– Najwa Zebian, The Nectar of Pain
And again, in case instagram disappears:
Nobody will protect you from your suffering. You can’t cry it away or eat it way or starve it away or walk it away or punch it away or even therapy it away. It’s just there, and you have to survive it. You have to endure it. You have to live through it and love it and move on and be better for it and run as far as you can in the direction of your best and happiest dreams across the bridge that was built by your own desire to heal.
– Cheryl Strayed, Tiny Beautiful Things via instagram @messyheadss
It was always simple, not hidden hard
You’ve been played at a game called remembering your name
And you stuffed it up
– Steer, Missy Higgins
I’ve spent my life
running at a wall.
Now I open my eyes,
see the door, the open door,
one metre to the left
of my body’s bloody imprint,
and weep for
my poor, brave, stupid self.
It was always simple.
Within the first two paragraphs of this article, Needleman (in paraphrase) has invoked a roll call of prominent depressives and suicides: Tolstoy, Plath, Nietszche, Kierkegaard, William James.
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